🌮 Taco Therapy & Tough Truths: Resetting After the Fog

🎵 Song of the Day: “Heart of the Matter” – Don Henley

(Let it sting. Let it soothe. Because getting to the heart of the matter usually starts with something tender. Sometimes it’s a soft-spoken chorus. Sometimes, it’s a soft-shelled taco.)

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🤐 My Secret Companion

Tucked in my bag is a quiet companion—a plush taco named Tiny.

He’s yellow felt, stitched with a sweet smile, and has a tag that reads:

“It’s okay to fall apart sometimes. Tacos fall apart—and we still love them.”

I know it. You know it. Tiny knows it, too.

He doesn’t speak, doesn’t judge, and doesn’t count macros. He just… shows up. Like I try to do, even when I’m not sure how I’m really doing.

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🌫️ The Fog Creep

On the surface? I’ve been doing fine.

Hitting the gym. Logging 20k steps at work. Lifting heavier. Eating better.

From the outside, it looks like I’m crushing it.

But inside? Drifting.

Like there’s a quiet current pulling me away from myself—even as everything on the surface stays calm.

That’s when Tiny came to the rescue. I pulled him out, set him next to my notebook, and finally did the thing I’d been avoiding for days: a personal audit.

Not the fancy kind with graphs and percentages. The real kind—the kind that makes you hold your breath right before you start, because you know it’s going to hurt a little.

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📓 The Audit

I split the page into two columns:

✅ What’s Working:

My strength

My consistency

My improved diet

My sleep

My decision to eat less meat

My overall stamina

❌ What’s Not:

Recovery

Hydration

Mental clarity

Checking in with myself emotionally

Giving myself credit

Recognizing that growth isn’t just reps and sweat—it’s rest and reflection, too

And from all that came one question I’ve been avoiding for way too long:

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🧠 Who Do I Want to Be?

Not someday. Not when I hit a goal weight or cross some imaginary finish line.

Now.

Do I want to be the guy who burns out chasing numbers—

Or the guy who listens when his body whispers before it has to scream?

Do I want to keep proving something to the version of me who quit last year—

Or build something solid with the version who keeps showing up now?

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🔁 The Reset

I choose honesty.

I choose to reset.

I choose soft-shelled resilience.

Here’s what’s next for me:

More water 💧

More stretching 🧘‍♂️

Less beating myself up 🛑

Weekly check-ins 📅

Playlists that heal, not just hype 🎶

And yes—more taco reminders when I need them 🌮

Because falling apart sometimes isn’t failure.

It’s part of the process.

And if a six-inch plush taco with stubby arms and a supportive message helps me remember that? Even better. Especially better.

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We’re just getting started—and trust me: it’s going to get real.

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