"Puzzle of Me: Uncovering My True Self"

Entry #64

As I stood in front of my storage unit, a sense of trepidation washed over me. I had been putting off this task for far too long, but I knew it was time to face the music. My house doesn't have a traditional garage, instead, it has a storage unit that serves as a catch-all for all my belongings. The thought of organizing it was daunting, but I took a deep breath and dove in headfirst. I started by pulling out boxes and bins, clearing out the empty ones and making room to work. As I began to sift through the contents of the bins, I was surprised by how much I was able to get rid of. Two bins were filled with items from my house that I no longer needed, and I felt a sense of accomplishment with each item I discarded.

The storage unit was like a time capsule, filled with memories and mementos from my past. There were old boxes and bins, dusty and worn, filled with things I had forgotten I even owned. As I started to clear out the clutter, I felt like I was uncovering a part of myself that I had lost touch with. It was like archaeology, excavating the layers of my past to reveal the person I am today. I stumbled upon an old letter from a friend, tucked away in a box of memories. It was like finding a treasure, a reminder of the connections and relationships that had shaped me into the person I am today. I felt a sense of nostalgia wash over me, remembering the good times and the bad, and the people who had been by my side through it all.

But as I delved deeper into the storage unit, I started to feel a sense of unease. What was I thinking when I bought or kept some of this stuff? There were items that I had purchased for my side hustle, but there were also things that I had apparently wanted to keep for no discernible reason. Did I buy them as a form of retail therapy? Was I trying to fill a void in my life with material possessions? The more I looked at my belongings, the more I realized that I had been using them as a distraction from my true self. I knew that I could sell some of the items, give others to people who needed them, and donate the rest. But as I stood there, surrounded by the remnants of my past, I couldn't help but wonder who I was and what I wanted out of life.

This journey of self-improvement started back in August, when I began to feel a sense of restlessness. I had been going through the motions of my daily routine - work, gym, home, cleaning, cooking, and spending time with my dog - but I felt unfulfilled. It wasn't until I started a bootcamp in September that I began to feel a sense of purpose. But as the weeks went by, I started to feel like I was losing momentum. I realized that I had been defining myself by my roles - employee, gym-goer, pet parent - but I wasn't sure who I was outside of those labels. I felt like I had lost myself in the process of helping and taking care of others, and I wasn't sure how to get back to being me.

As I continued to clean and organize my storage unit, I started to think about my journey of self-improvement. I had set goals for myself, but I realized that they would be easier to achieve if I had a clearer sense of who I was and what I wanted. I started to wonder if I should try to figure out why I lost myself in the first place, or if I should just focus on rediscovering who I am. Maybe the answer lay in the act of cleaning itself - the physical act of clearing out clutter and making space for new things. As I scratched behind my dog's ears, he looked up at me with an expression that seemed to say, "I know who you are, even if you don't." It was a strange feeling, but it gave me hope that maybe, just maybe, I could find my way back to myself.

I'd say that I'm about 75% complete when it comes to knowing myself. I know my personality, my values, and my strengths. But there's still 25% of me that's unknown, and that's what I'm trying to discover. I'm not sure what the journey will look like, but I'm willing to take it one step at a time. I'll start by focusing on self-improvement, and see where that takes me. Maybe it will be easy, maybe it will be hard, but I'm ready to put in the work. As the quote goes, "The greatest discovery of all time is that a person can change their future by merely changing their attitude" (Oprah Winfrey). I'm determined to change my attitude, to approach life with a sense of curiosity and wonder, and to see where this journey will take me.

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